Ughhhh!

Still still struggling. Let's face it, I'm not really trying right now.

I am in the process of filing for guardianship of my 10 year old grandson. His mom left him here with me about six months ago. No discussion about her plan for him, when she plans to take him back, and very little help with food and expenses. I've asked her a number of times about this and for help, but she just never responds. I am happy to take care of him and feels it's for the best. My daughter is an alcoholic and has not taken the best care of him.

I've been really stressed about all this. Especially lately, because she will be served paperwork about the court hearing and my intent. Not sure how she will react. When she drinks, she is very verbally abusive towards me. So much so, that I kicked her out because I was worried it would be a small step to physical violence. I worry she will come get him, and since I have no legal grounds yet, I can't keep her from taking him. I worry if she does that, she will fail to get him to school regularly again, that she will get drunk and leave him to his own devices again.

I have been eating all that worry.

Anyway, I will be glad when we get past the court hearing in March.

In the meanwhile, I know I have to take my weight loss seriously. I've gained a few more pounds and I can really feel it in my knees, feet and legs from carrying all this weight.